The concept of Escapism
Escapism, remember that topic I keep bringing up from time to time? The concept of trying to run away from reality? The concept that people like to party and drink and smoke and just lose it all because life is too hard? Some people resort to things like that, others cannot. So what would those who were left out do? What do they do to escape reality?
They tried to watch their favorite videos from the past, they’ve tried to play games and escape into the virtual reality, they’ve tried to eat, they’ve tried to sleep, they’ve tried anger and screaming and ranting, they’ve tried crying and crying and crying, they’ve tried laughing and talking to friends and hugging and they’ve definitely tried self-confidence speeches and speeches of self-love but physically and mentally they are still hurting and they are trying so hard not to fall apart especially in public spaces. Trying to mask over this pain and agony and upsetness with a fake smile and self-depreciating jokes. And maybe these jokes, these horrible and terrible self-depreciating jokes are just a call for help, for anyone’s help. For someone to be there to comfort them because even though at times it’s easy to forget and forgive and let go… there will always be moments where breaking down is happening and the headache comes back and the shame and disappointment in oneself returns over and over again.
So then I ask, how can you completely escape from reality? How is that even possible when your eyes are constantly swelling up and you keep bringing up old memories that you once thought were good and positive. It eats you up inside, it hurts from really really deep inside your heart. You constantly blame yourself, you constantly fight the tears, you constantly try to tell yourself to keep calm and to fight embarrassment and that it wasn’t your fault and that you were the victim of some shitty situation…. But you can’t stop it from hurting.
They tried to watch their favorite videos from the past, they’ve tried to play games and escape into the virtual reality, they’ve tried to eat, they’ve tried to sleep, they’ve tried anger and screaming and ranting, they’ve tried crying and crying and crying, they’ve tried laughing and talking to friends and hugging and they’ve definitely tried self-confidence speeches and speeches of self-love but physically and mentally they are still hurting and they are trying so hard not to fall apart especially in public spaces. Trying to mask over this pain and agony and upsetness with a fake smile and self-depreciating jokes. And maybe these jokes, these horrible and terrible self-depreciating jokes are just a call for help, for anyone’s help. For someone to be there to comfort them because even though at times it’s easy to forget and forgive and let go… there will always be moments where breaking down is happening and the headache comes back and the shame and disappointment in oneself returns over and over again.
So then I ask, how can you completely escape from reality? How is that even possible when your eyes are constantly swelling up and you keep bringing up old memories that you once thought were good and positive. It eats you up inside, it hurts from really really deep inside your heart. You constantly blame yourself, you constantly fight the tears, you constantly try to tell yourself to keep calm and to fight embarrassment and that it wasn’t your fault and that you were the victim of some shitty situation…. But you can’t stop it from hurting.
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